I thought that i would never be able to love anyone the same way ever again. So, i kept myself from everyone that tried to get into my life. I lived with an emptiness for years. I thought that i wouldn't be able to feel the same way for anyone ever again but... I meet a guy...from a distance, at first I didn't want anything to have to do anything with him cause I knew i would get hurt all over again if i did. But after a while i decided to give it a try. I fell in love again, way so much in love. I was scared at first cause i didn't want to be left heartbroken again (and it happened). We broke up and make up, i am so insecure, sarcastic can't learn the word "trust" it just because i been broken for so many times. One day i made such a big mistake unforgivable, but i only did once i swear and reasonable. It ruined everything the fight getting serious his loves slowly fading away. Everything turn into unhealthy, my guilt is there eating me every time. So he decide to end what we had, i don't wan't but his not happy no more so i let him go. I didn't see any point in going on, There is something about him that i couldn't let go of. Then it hit me like a rock. He took something from me, No matter how anyone tells me that i have to move on I can't, No matter how much i try. Now i sit here alone, staying up remembering everything that we ever had. The emptiness in my heart can never be filled, and no matter what he'll always have a place in my heart.
Babe, i know i fucked up too bad this time. Im sorry, and im going not to bring you anymore pain. Im going to let you forget me. Im going to deal with the consequences. I hope where ever you find yourself, and who you find yourself with i wish you the ever most happiness.
will always love you T_T
