It was really never intention of falling into a situation which I know that I will be the one who will suffer, things just turned my emotion into a unexplainable feeling. i hate myself for letting myself fall for him because it is impossible that me and him will have a chance,(coz of some reason we can't be..)I made a BIG mistake coz of how i feel for him, his ideal man so perfect I loved every short moments I am with him,I know that’s love because everytime I dated someone new, i feel wrong. i am terribly hurting, I'm turning 23 this year and i find myself one night asking if what is the problem within me?? There is a few who tried but i keep rejecting people who want's to love me. I'm crying because all i want is someone who is willing to love me for what i am. i want to feel the feeling of being loved and taken cared by the one you love the most.
I used to think that we all make our own pathways in life, what brings happinness and sadness to our lives. I meet him again recently after 4 years , I started believing in destiny..Things happens for a reason..I cannot figure out the reason yet.
What hurts the most is that we both know what we want and how much we want it, we cannot have it.
