It was really never intention of falling into a situation which I know that I will be the one who will suffer, things just turned my emotion into a unexplainable feeling. i hate myself for letting myself fall for him because it is impossible that me and him will have a chance,(coz of some reason we can't be..)I made a BIG mistake coz of how i feel for him, his ideal man so perfect I loved every short moments I am with him,I know that’s love because everytime I dated someone new, i feel wrong. i am terribly hurting, I'm turning 23 this year and i find myself one night asking if what is the problem within me?? There is a few who tried but i keep rejecting people who want's to love me. I'm crying because all i want is someone who is willing to love me for what i am. i want to feel the feeling of being loved and taken cared by the one you love the most.
I used to think that we all make our own pathways in life, what brings happinness and sadness to our lives. I meet him again recently after 4 years , I started believing in destiny..Things happens for a reason..I cannot figure out the reason yet.
What hurts the most is that we both know what we want and how much we want it, we cannot have it.
Something to reflect on my friend:
ReplyDeletehttp://www.marcandangel.com/2011/12/11/30-things-to-stop-doing-to-yourself/ - Marc G.