"BROKENNESS"

So painful, have no idea what to say...

This is the worst kind of pain i have ever felt i tried to make way into his heart and stay there, i wish there were a happy ending like in the books you know where they die all cuddiling or in a titinic Rose like never let go.

I meet this gentelman on a website "facebook" i started talking to him getting to know each other month of november 2011, it feels good sharing my problem to him, until he started helping me, he have a good heart so wonderful and amazing, has flaws... i never thought that i was gonna be so in love with him . didn't think it was simple possible.

It was so hurt and one day i will finally let go, im going to cry yes..a lot. I wish he would tell me to shut up and kiss me coz all i want is to spend my life next to a man like him.

What i feel is real aint imagining, i feel in love WAY TOO IN LOVE its evolving, passionate love...But sometimes love isn't enough. I feel like i have fallen in love being too young, too little, too innocent. I give him my heart completly done all that i can, said what i feel. Im falling hard , laying in his arms, seing the way he look at me, hearing things he said to me..i can't help it.

Month of January i turned into a relationship with him every day we talk we sleep at the same time and waking up at same time tru yahoo messgenger and cam. Feb. the day we cant wait to come the day that he will get here in phillipines to see me, it was midnight, the best first night ever feels so good beautiful that obviously we are so in love to each other...

But the saddest and painful parts of relationship also comes, we have an arguiments, missunderstanding, we fights every lil thing's and i admit mostly is my faults, me of being jealousy and insecure the number one reason. Saddly he get tired and leave, he give up on me.

I have no choice but to accept his dicission to leave me, he wants me to let him go..yes i do tried to get him back, but i cant anymore...i can't won his heart anymore..i feel of giving up, but my heart don't want to let go yet..maybe one day. Im just hoping that he carry a lil part of me too now that we end up.

I still love him and want him back, i find myself thinking "why do we need to be reminded of this things? can't we just learn from them and be done with it? take comfort of the fact that we are all messed up.

For all the Gf's do what's best for your man, wherever they are happy or whatever makes them happy let them, don't be too selfish let them feel free coz loving someone is setting them free, letting them go. that's the only way to keep them coz love will never be enough to make them stay.